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A gift
Posted:Jul 22, 2018 11:24 am
Last Updated:Aug 4, 2018 9:12 am
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So my last few days have been enlightening. Thurs morning
Before work my daughter came over for lunch. The day before
I had grilled chicken breast and made a cucumber salad.
She made her plate and I began to feel very odd. My throat felt tight, the
Back of my neck and top of my shoulder were all feeling restricted;
For lack of a better word. Then came some sweating(in a.c.) and a strange
Nausea. In about a 15 minute period the symptoms didn't change so I went
off to the er. Lots of tests telling me everything looked good. No meds given.
The diagnosis was congestive heart failure. Which sent me into waves of unstopable tears. For two days. The doc put that diagnosis on pause and sent
me to a hospital an hour away.
Lasix, insulin shots, cardiac meds, blood thinners, pain and things I don't
even know what they were for. A heart cath (they do it thru the wrist now)
Dear Lord I'm only 50....
On the plus side of having this episode and, yes, it was a HEART ATTACK
albeit mild and by the grace of God, no heart muscle damage. Minimal blockage
30% which is pretty consistent with my age. So no stents needed, that is after
70% blockage. In the cath lab they told me this was a gift. I am choosing to look
at it that way. I haven't smoked since 10am on Thursday. No alcohol as yet and
sex has been a more than a few weeks ago. Changing my diet. Oh yeah, did
I mention the diabetes diagnosis too? Yep, when it rains it pours. I actually love life and would like to continue to live it.
I have so many questions, concerns, thoughts and of course I still have dreams.
So, take inventory my friends on who and what is important. Who was there when you needed them, and a thank you bigger than I can describe to my friend, A MAN who came to me without me asking, who gave me comfort and meaning and let me cry and be irrational without judgements. He showed me love and compassion and support just because.
So this event, is most definitely a gift. Lots to learn and see here. Maybe not
all pleasant and some forced self evaluation and discovery. I am trying.
And continuing to try and live and be better. That is all I can do.
So, I am.
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Mis....
Posted:Jul 13, 2018 11:54 pm
Last Updated:Jul 17, 2018 9:32 pm
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Misinterpretation, misunderstanding, missing communication.
Don't assume you know anything. Because ya don't.
We all have reasons and seasons. So ask and never ever assume
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Blah
Posted:Jun 23, 2018 12:29 am
Last Updated:Jul 16, 2018 10:05 am
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Too many years, fears and tears. I'm just tired. Just a bad night.
Reminiscing tunes. Tomorrow is a new day
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Man brains please...
Posted:Jun 16, 2018 10:34 pm
Last Updated:Jun 20, 2018 2:23 pm
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Why do ex's, not husband, but ex by try to come back?
I don't be put on a pedistool or a string. If we wanted each
Other we would still be together. I've been told 6 months
Later, oh I made a mistake. Seriously men out there but on your
Man brains and explain this plz
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Wake me up
Posted:Jun 13, 2018 10:27 pm
Last Updated:Jun 16, 2018 10:25 pm
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So many questions about what I like.
I've been sheltered. Had lots of sex. Wish I knew
Then what I know now.
Life is truly what you make it. And I want a life. I just want
An honest man to shar e it with me. That is all
.
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Still
Posted:May 1, 2018 12:25 am
Last Updated:Jul 2, 2018 9:12 pm
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Still here living my life. Im breathing, alive and still taking in nourishment.
Such is life. Rock on, live on be you and be badass
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I'm still here
Posted:Apr 18, 2018 10:55 pm
Last Updated:Jun 16, 2018 10:29 pm
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3 more days. I'm still here still single.
Still me.
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Ahhhhhhj
Posted:Mar 19, 2018 11:44 pm
Last Updated:Jun 7, 2018 11:03 pm
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50 omg it's coming very soon. I just not sure what to do with that!
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Codes
Posted:Dec 1, 2017 12:27 am
Last Updated:Dec 1, 2017 9:21 am
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Girl code....guy code...
Interested in peoples perspective of what each code means. Is it looked
At as unspoken loyalty among friends? Or....is it just bullshit
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Tired
Posted:Nov 29, 2017 12:24 am
Last Updated:Dec 15, 2017 10:17 am
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Pretty sure Im Destined.to be alone. I am a great person! I know who I am and what I have to offer. The men I manage to meet are complete ass holes. I dont understand. They say the right things in the beginning and then they want my room mate. Just dont get it. Im a good person . Whats wrong with being honest faithful and good. Omg I want a life
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Ugh
Posted:Oct 19, 2017 10:57 pm
Last Updated:Nov 28, 2017 6:27 pm
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This diy thing....sucks
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Still diy
Posted:Aug 16, 2017 11:12 pm
Last Updated:May 12, 2018 9:03 am
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I do it myself and actually get off hard but i want the feeling
of a hard thick stiff cock inside me. Im wet and warm and wanting.
I want that hard cock in my mouth till i feel it pulsating.
I want it slowly slid inside of me and then slamming my wet slot
Until we both cum. Dont pull out dont stop keep going until we both cum again. You feel me tighten and squirt soaking our legs keep going dont stop yet
Oh my god harder pull my hair and keep pounding my pussy. I stop and slide
You slowly into my ass omg im cumming dont stop come on baby cum on my ass...i soak us again as my pussy clentches in unison with the pulsing of your cock we both moan collapsing together sweaty and satisfied
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In a pinch
Posted:Aug 11, 2017 2:19 pm
Last Updated:Sep 13, 2017 1:52 am
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Alone horny. I miss the slap slap sound when skin meets skin.
The mixing of scents and sweat. The touch and tingle and goosebumps.
That very first penetration. Connection. The slow build up, moans and groans panting Leading to more intense harder faster. The groping and grabbing squeezing and biting. The tension and agony before the release.
I just had to do it myself....again. Good thing God gave me hands
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