In the Mouth of Madness  

40Deuce 40M  
5363 posts
1/12/2018 12:40 pm

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In the Mouth of Madness


Man holding Phone in a group of friends proudly exclaims “I’ll get the Uber” !

In the dark safety of his soul there’s nothing he wants to do less .

He is Scared .

He prays a silent prayer that some else has the courage to do it.

The prayer is unanswered - as always .

He is promised venmos

The venmos never come

A day passes

A week

A month

He broods

He planks

He vows revenge

The day comes

A day of hopeful possibility !

He brings a single Two-liter bottle of Orange Soda to a party .

His defiant protest goes unnoticed .

Devastation swallows the man .

A time back in the day my (now) ex-wife and I were beefing over making the bed and she says "How god damn hard is it to make a bed ?!"

And I said to her "About as hard as is it for you to suck my dick . Not hard at all , but how hard or easy something is doesn't really factor into your decision to do it - what matters whether you want to do it ."

And she said "That's different , sucking your dick isn't important !"

"And making the bed isn't important to me , which is why it's instead exactly the same . Every now and then you suck my dick because you know it makes me happy , but you're not going to make a habit of it because you don't want to . Making the bed is the same thing for me . I do it occasionally because I know you want me to but most of the time I can't be bothered ."

A lot of people think we got divorced because she was banging her boss but hstly I didn't care . If anything we got along better during the timeframe when she was rewing her boss - she was a lot happier which made things go more smoothly between us .

The funny thing about that is that whenever people talk about polyamory I internally (and sometimes externally) role my eyes because it seems like trendy bullshit . I guess to me the difference is that polyamory is my eyes trying to have multiple romantiy committed relationships and I don't think that's possible . If you just want to bang multiple people that doesn't need a name .

Sometimes people ask me why I put single instead of divorced as my status . Hstly it never even occurred to me to put divorced . If you're divorced aren't you single until you get married again ? I get it , they want people to say they're divorced instead of single so you know who's damaged goods VS who's just so insane they never settled down with any but I don't think of myself as divorced . That was so long ago it barely seems real . I liken it to the fact that I was in HS once but it has no bearing on my life know really .

Also I was never married . That whole thing was my patented "40Deuce Complete Lies" which you all love so much .

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40Deuce 40M  
4663 posts
1/12/2018 12:41 pm

Or was I ?

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lustasaurus 40F  
1625 posts
1/12/2018 1:08 pm

Polyamory, and much of the language and culture that goes with it can get pretty trendy and self-righteous. Most are are honest, caring, selfless people. Others want you to take their pamphlet home so you can get permission to bang them. This is also true of a lot of religions.

We went to some poly meet-ups, and we were not welcome to return, partly because we felt that reading/memorizing Ethical Slut was optional. That's when I started using the term "open", which is free of definitions and customs. Whatever it's called, it does make our home life better, especially when there's more romance/affection all-around.


40Deuce replies on 1/14/2018 6:21 pm:
I don't know about most but I'll believe some

superbjversion2 62F  
10354 posts
1/12/2018 5:24 pm

Make the bed? I'm so glad you got rid of that stiff-rumped fake wife!

Fortune favors the BOLD


40Deuce replies on 1/14/2018 6:21 pm:
Ha , stiff-rumped , I like it

christylovesfun 45F  
16509 posts
1/12/2018 9:25 pm

fuck uber!

Age cannot wither her, nor custom stale
Her infinite variety. Other women cloy
The appetites they feed, but she makes hungry
Where most she satisfies. For vilest things
Become themselves in her, that the holy priests
Bless her when she is riggish. ~~ from Antony & Cleopatra


40Deuce replies on 1/14/2018 6:21 pm:
You got it

author51 55F  
48985 posts
1/13/2018 1:09 am

I wrote about monogamy vs polygamy as I also feel it is a trend and only a means for people to screw others.I am a monogamous lover who only needs or wants one to fill my needs.I have no need for multiples.It might satisfy me sexually but does not satisfy my soul in the long run....

One can never have enough JOY in their life...


40Deuce replies on 1/14/2018 6:22 pm:
I wonder what the next big trend in sex will be

wickedeasy 67F  
30652 posts
1/13/2018 10:10 am

oh, this gets a standing O

You cannot conceive the many without the one.


40Deuce replies on 1/14/2018 6:23 pm:
O Canada , our home and native land

smartasswoman 60F  
27015 posts
1/14/2018 3:25 pm

One could argue that someone who actually was able to get someone to marry them (even if they later divorced) is LESS of damaged goods than someone who has always been single!

(I feel it's OK to make this observation since I fall in the latter category)


40Deuce replies on 1/14/2018 6:24 pm:
If you're divorced you're damaged goods , if you never made it to the goal-line you're emotionally unavailable - those are the rules . Only if you're married and cheating are you a good candidate .

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